I hate to admit it, but I don’t know what to do? We are into the 17th week of the pregnancy and I have not shared this news with my sons yet. I feel terribly guilty about that. At the same time I am also petrified of telling them. I have so many conflicting thoughts running through my mind – which incidentally has the tendency to read too much into most situations.
The two are aware that Hilkka and I were trying to conceive. They did not say very much about it at the time and I thought it best back then not to push them too much for their opinions and emotions. Now I wish I knew how they felt. I have to tell them the news. I feel that I should tell them now, rather than later. But what are their reactions going to be? Oh, I know, of course nobody can tell for sure, and yes, it will probably be fine and they will understand, but what if they don’t?
The little one – I should find another name for him (this sounds so wrong) calling a boy that weighs 70kg and is about 1m70 tall “little”, or even “boy” for that matter. Damn, I got side-tracked again! Anyways, I am worried about how my sons will feel and react. React to the news, react to me, react to Hilkka.
And how am I going to break the news to them? Do I call on the phone? Do I send a text message? Do I skype, viber or whatsup? What do I say? How do I say it? AARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHH!